Epilog

I’m finally honest with myself
Now I’ve got to be honest to you
Truth is I still love you,
It won’t change, no matter the men
The sex, the time, the place
It’s bigger than me and I need you
To know what it’s like in here.
As the day is ending,
Even the day of my wedding,
You’ll probably cross my mind
And that’s all right.
You’re my love and I accept that
I won’t let you down
Even if I tried,
I’ll always be around
For when you cry at night,
I’ll make songs and sell them
As my true creation
But it’d just be a reflection
Of the void I live in since you left.
This is all true
Don’t let my mask hurt you,
Cause I couldn’t live knowing
That I damaged your blooming.
You’re going to be alright
Just go ahead and try out,
You are worth every action
Don’t let them take your passion.
I hope you’re not sad girl
Don’t be a bad girl,
You’ll grow to see
Everything it’s meant to be.
All these lines I cannot change
All this poetry is not in vain,
If you’re listening please refrain
From misleading my love as hate
But honestly I took every hit I can.
You don’t need me no more
And that’s not wrong,
I am proud of who you are
No matter how far I go.
The mornings are hard
The night’s are not fine,
I’m dying from an illness
And my time is burning out.
So I need to move on,
Even if I can’t say goodbye,
Cause I’m feeling so low
I can’t hear the sound of my guitar.
I wished it was easier than this
But true love never is.
I could keep hiding behind
But there’s no place left in my mind,
You overloaded it with your cacao eyes.
This is my epilogue
And it is with love
That I want to let you go
Before I kill our past hopes.
We’re living in a wild world child
And I’m not man enough to carry your hand,
I always walked on the wild side
Of the sidewalk of your sunshine.
They say love is to keep that person near
I think we should let our lovers be free,
Love them like we love cats
Without forcing their hand
Being there from time to time.
Sweetheart do not mistake
My verses to be a regret
I am the happiest
When I think of your sweet face,
Your intensive hips
And your sugar lips
Repeatedly biting my neck
As we melted during sex.
Live long sweet love
Take care of your soul,
Do not let Men tell you wrong
You are everything humanity could hope.

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Sincerely yours

The way her eyes look at yours
Crossing the room full of drunks,
Chasing my moves as I look
Like somebody you’re not used to.
Then the bill comes to my hand
And there’s something to find out
About your wanders in the wild
Streets of a Southern town.
It all brings me back to reality
And as your hips start dancing,
I don’t think you can hear
The way I’m about to split
My neglected soul for thee.
Do you realize how many men
Will fall into your dirty games?
Do you realize how much it means
To be loved and to share suffering?
Truth is this is not why I am here
There is not enough love for me,
You just look like you could hurt
And I’m willing to take my turn
Right after the feeling is burnt.
She orders two shots
But she’s on her own,
I walk by her side
And freezes as the night
Swears a romanesque pact
About a man going deep down
Into the legs of an evil woman.
So I sat and ate her enormous pussy
She cried and whisper that she loved me,
I couldn’t lie, her muscles were tight
And every inch of her skin I would bite.
Sweetlips as she feels my member,
Sweet eyes in a cold December,
I watched her go without spoking a word
And now I see this girl hurting my core.
I’ve never get enough of this drug
Love lives deep in my bones,
But since you’ve been gone
There’s no one who’s enough.
So I’ll sleep with her tonight
She may even fall for my eyes,
I could fuck her brains out
But I couldn’t make love in the night,
As I want your soft skin very bad
And my soul you can still call ‘mine’.
Again truly yours,
Please do not go.

Another tequila night

Another tequila night
Girls gone wild,
Alcohol to the core
Of this special shot.
I used to love the game
Flirting with someone else
Finding a new person
Releasing the pressure.
Now I don’t feel anything
And all is boredom,
Thing are good seldom
I don’t find it interesting.
Why look for another woman
When I can’t forget the old one?
Why play for days, months, years
To get fucked up in the end of it?
My addiction is coming back
And I don’t have the energy
To keep it from my misery
As in my mind I hold you tight.
I want it all to just go
Though these lines
Don’t seem to stop
And I’m tired of trying
When there’s just acting.
More tequila is coming
Girls all around puking
A pen slices my hand
Blood filling my insides,
And I begin to write.
I’ll leave you be now
Don’t worry about I,
There’s still some art
Left for me to die.

Writer survival

Sitting drunk
Trying to write
Cigarette in the left hand
Whisky dripped all around
Trying to write
Trying
To
Survive.
The beer flows
And i’m broke
The women
Seem to run from me
As they get closer to me
The drunken street-walkers
Seem nicer.
I go from party
To party
Every night
we smoke
Our brains out
We drink ourselves
Into coma
And every night
There’s this girl,
It’s always a different girl
Outwardly at least
But every night
At every party
The same thing arrives.
Sometimes we talk
Around a smoke
Or many drinks for me
Sometimes not that much
It always ends the same
And no-one seems to care.
I don’t know how
I am supposed to act
But everything comes back
To the first woman
That loved you once
And then everything decay
To the point of misery
And all these
Party-women
Make the words flow
And my soul go on
A little more.
So, should I let
This party end?
I’ll sour a drink
And write with this ink
Not a masterpiece maybe
But something at least finished.

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